马男波杰克第五季

2018年，马男波杰克突然在社交网络上走红。

一时间占领了微博微信，及许多人的社交头像，原因是“丧”对话引起了人们内心深处的认同。

马男波杰克被誉为“毒鸡汤”，是因为这部剧没有幻想未来的美好，而是讲述现实的残酷。

马男波杰克是人们内心的缩影，他自私自利无所事事甚至嗑药吸毒，他也渴望亲情渴望爱情，内心深处也有柔软。

原生家庭剥夺了他的快乐和自信，他的内心深处渴望认同，他的一生都在期待母亲对她的夸奖和认同。

他的人生是狂欢后的一地狼藉，他从未在大型典礼、派对中获得的快乐。

相反，他感到迷失，感到迷茫。

他不会爱人，也不会被爱。

他错过了鹿，赶到新墨西哥时，鹿已结婚生女。

他妄图与鹿私奔，但鹿觉得自己的生活很幸福。

他怅然若，失犯了更大的错误，准备用鹿的女儿代替鹿。

被鹿捉奸在床，责令他离开鹿的生活，他只得开船回到LA。

他永远没有花生酱先生的乐观，他不懂花生酱先生的自信与快乐。

他永远没有陶德的行动力，他瞻前顾后，错失良机。

他用酒精和毒品麻醉自己。

他更像鸵鸟，将头埋在沙中，仿佛可以躲过灾难。

马男波杰克的外祖母被丈夫切除了前额叶，从此失去了情绪，也再也不能思考。

他的母亲因为他而不得不嫁给一个没有前途的人。

他的父亲没有文学前途，却自鸣得意。

他的童年给他的人生奠定了灰暗基调。

他的童年既是不幸的源头，也是他逃避现实的理由，他一次又一次地将童年伤口上的结痂揭下来，露出血肉淋漓的伤口。

他将自己关在童年的笼子里，一遍又一遍地用童年来麻痹自己。

无论失败还是成功他永远都是那个在父母吵架时在角落瑟瑟发抖的小男孩，永远都是那个被母亲嫌弃的小男孩。

马男波杰克，他将人生中最珍视的东西狠狠地砸在地上，让其它们支离破碎，再用劣质的胶水，生疏的技艺将其胡乱地黏在一起。

他爱过黛安，爱过鹿，爱过PC，但他害怕责任，害怕未知。

他错失良机，终将追悔莫及。

胡闹的小马这部剧是他工作的开始，也是结束。

他沉迷于此，大概是因为，他从未有过如此温馨和谐的家庭。

我们也遇到过，遇到过诸多人生中的不顺意，我们也会搞砸，也会逃避，也会面临抉择，也会走错道路。

马男波杰克是一种象征，象征着我们内心中的脆弱，象征着我们所经历的种种挫折。

每个人心中都有一个波杰克 ，他冲动、混蛋、胆小、自私，但是他善良、美好的一面也在熠熠闪光。

马男波杰克，这部剧吸引我们的也许就是：哪怕生活是一地鸡毛，我们也得艰难前行。

也许山重水复之后，没有柳暗花明，我们也得继续寻找，在这个冰冷的世界里寻找，寻找属于自己的慰籍。

依着我对这剧的喜欢，其实是没法客观的去说的。

他们已经远不是角色了，他们是活生生的人，《登堂入室》里吉尔曼老师说：“文学会教给我们生命的一切。

”而吉尔曼老师的妻子对他说：“你知道这都是瞎扯淡，文学什么也不能教给我们。

”文学当然不能教给我们生命的一切，电影也不能。

电影终究是电影，故事也只是故事，阿尔弗雷多对多多说：“生活比电影苦多了。

”艺术能带给我们的只有对生命认知的启迪，对自我，对他人，对世界的思考。

我们终于可以用另一种眼光去感受世界，去探索自我。

很高兴在这几年里认识了他们。

戴安就是我最喜欢的那类女孩，敢于追求自我，无论是否被人们看作异类，愤世嫉俗，永不妥协。

花生酱先生是我羡慕着又讨厌着的人，他注定人人都爱，收获着快乐又单纯的一生。

波杰克是最复杂，最让我有同感，也最不愿意去接触的人，不幸的家庭让波杰克终将孤独，没有人会真的爱他，没有人在了解他后会真的喜欢他，说到底他是一个混蛋但也好像不止于此。

卡洛琳公主是最值得被爱的女强人，不依靠任何人，自己守护着自己。

他们是我的朋友，他们早已经融入我的生活，早已经是我的一部分。

因为戴安，我不去在乎很多事又去坚守着另一些事。

因为波杰克，我去认真思考我的人生。

这些人没有教给我生活的一切，但是他们就在那里，告诉你一切都不算太糟一切也都太糟了，他们相爱，好像生活就注定像焦糖玛奇朵，他们憎恨，就像生活只是一杯苦涩的让人头晕的啤酒。

不过…戴安还有波杰克，凯洛琳公主也领养了小baby，波杰克走入戒毒所……And as you know life is…just life…

伴随着BoJack的这5年，遇到了很多剧，但BoJack仍是我心中的NO.1。

重新刷这部剧，我意识到不管看多少遍，这部作品都不能带给你安慰，它会让浮躁的心安静，让虚假的生活揭开面纱露出残酷的一面，而且它会让你抑郁，即使生活一帆风顺。

第四季的最后，Diane和Mr Peanutbutter搬进新公寓，当她再次被所谓的“惊喜”狠狠戳了一下，她崩溃了。

那一瞬间，我懂。

心想，碰到这样一个丈夫——为满足自身需求而帮助别人，为自我感觉良好而去实现他人梦想——着实应该离婚。

离婚后的生活是什么样呢？

生活还未走到这一步，我还不能想象。

但是这部剧给了我答案。

当Diane趴在方向盘上大哭的时候，Mr Peanutbutter这个她生活中唯一的温暖离她而去——Mr Peanutbutter是个天生的乐观者，他会继续他快乐的生活；然而独自生活的Diane会变得更加cynical并且孤独。

浪漫的关系是如此的虚妄。

Diane离婚的时候，她看到Mr Peanutbutter以对待自己的方式、对待新女友，像是一切未曾改变。

这种情景已经让人心碎——但是更大的真实是：没有人不可替代。

每个人对待别人的方式都是相对固定的，不管是对待新交的女友还是刚出生的孩子。

所谓“独一无二“——只有记忆和执念让我们以为如此，只有离别和不可复归的生活本身让我们这么以为。

创意评论：第五季的艺术创意迸发出无以伦比的新观感。

最明显的是片尾曲的曲风每次都会根据主题而改变——Diane在越南时结尾是阮等弦乐，BoJack有Hollyhock来访这一集是摇滚曲风。

其次，分镜头的切换更具有电影感。

印象最深刻的是万圣节那一集，当Mr Peanutbutter和四任老婆/女友一起前往BoJack家开Halloween party的时候，反复使用了时间背景的切换和倒叙。

最后四个场景拼在一起，主角大声喊出：“This is gonna be the best Halloween!” 瞬间体会到艺术作品带来的情感冲撞和独特的魅力。

创作人员在不断的积累中表现手法更加炉火纯青，整部剧的走向也越来越深——从探索社会prevalent的愚昧盲从，到探求内心最隐秘的情感；从为社会公正发声到究底人生的意义——整部剧让我感觉到艺术作品的创作和人生的多彩有着强烈的相关关系。

当你刚开始创作这部剧时，观众还不熟悉剧中的人物——不了解他们的背景和性格，所以故事首先伴随着他们的日常生活和对社会的批判展开。

随着观众对角色的熟悉和喜爱的增加，我们逐渐了解到每个主角背后的故事，先是BoJack（第一季为他写书），然后是Diane（因为他的父亲去世），其中穿插着Todd（讲述他的黑帮背景和小时候的蠢事），接下来是Mr Peanutbutter（带Diane回拉布拉多半岛），最后是Princess Carolyn（从女仆的女儿差点到公子哥的太太）。

这种布局似乎是伴随着人内心深处的broken的程度。

BoJack有着最shitty的家庭，所以着墨最多去讲述他的故事，以及尝试理解为什么他会变成今天的模样。

到第五季的时候，这些人内心的故事都被剖析完全，于是情节的发展走向了更深的层次。

剧集开始引起观众强烈的共鸣，因为我们每个人心里都有一点BoJack，一点Diane，有时会像Todd那样碰碰运气，有时会成为Mr Peanutbutter盲目乐观，最后都会抹掉眼泪，做坚强的Princess Carolyn。

这就是伟大的艺术作品，它看似在讲述好莱坞的has-been和他的朋友们的荒诞故事，其实它给我们每个人强烈的共鸣，让我们被理解、被安慰。

如果2021年要推薦一部影集，個人非常喜歡《馬男波傑克》，雖然是難以消化的卡通，劇中台詞卻字字刺中內心，男主角波傑克是過氣的影集演員，一直沈浸在以前的光榮中，他想變好，想變得再次有名，想得到所有人的愛，最後卻沒人喜歡他。

在自甘墮落的循環裡，不斷需要他人的救贖。

劇中沒有明確定義好與壞，在生活上，我們總是或多或少做錯一些事情，但這不代表我們就是個壞人，我們只能努力多做些好事，來修正自己，讓別人看見自己的犧牲，換取他人的信任。

人意識到悲傷需要一段時間，但，明瞭無需如此則要更久的時間，唯有放棄一切，才能得到真正的快樂。

所有的關卡，都是跟自己過意不去罷了！

劇中討論很多有關人性面的哀傷，每個人都想要快樂，希望每天都能開開心心，本質上，這是不可能的，我們想要的太多，太多的比較，導致失去純粹的快樂。

讓我們認清快樂的存在不在於外在的給與，都是來自內心的滿足。

遺憾，也是人生的一部分，太多抱歉是無法傳達的，就算讓對方知道，也不一定能理解，因為時間就這樣過去了，懺悔都來不及了，而這個遺憾會跟著你一輩子。

《馬男波傑克》，絕對不只是一部負能量的影集，在劇中每個人都能尋找自己的身影，產生些許共鳴，它不是要告訴你怎麼做比較好，因為【好】根本沒有標準答案，但能了解到這些難過都只是人生的一小部分，也許就能放過自己，也寬恕別人。

我主要从西方心理咨询这个视角，对每集的关键要点作了如下分集提炼。

按每三集一组，分了四组。

其中，大爱第五、六集。

第六集爆炸的IMBD评分（史上最高？

）了解一下：https://m.imdb.com/title/tt8266826/?ref_=m_ttep_ep_ep6以下为四组提炼。

第一组ep1 【生活方向】♦ Todd五季以来对明确的【生活方向】的持续追求。

ep2 【孤独/无归属感、无意义感】♦ 戴安的咨询师首次出场。

♦ 离婚激发了戴安的【孤独/无归属感、无意义感】ep3 【真实的自我】【不期待】♦ Gina被现实【压抑】的梦想（霍妮谈“真我”） 。

我们内心的冲突8.8卡伦霍妮 / 2015 / 译林出版社♦ 零期待以自保（@叔本华 存在主义心理治疗的思想基础）。

人生的智慧9.3[德] 叔本华 / 2014 / 上海人民出版社♦ 提了下《the wire》（隐含了编剧认可该老剧的深度）。

火线 第五季 (2008)9.72008 / 美国 / 剧情 悬疑 惊悚 犯罪 / 乔·施佩尔 厄内斯特·R·迪克森 乔伊·凯肯 斯科特凯肯 丹尼尔·艾提奥斯 阿格涅丝卡·霍兰 塞斯·曼恩 多米尼克·韦斯特 安东尼·海明威 克拉克·约翰森 / 多米尼克·韦斯特 雷格·E·凯蒂第二组ep4 暂无暂无ep5 【亲子代关系】♦ 卡洛琳的母子关系 @圆桌派-母子关系这期，萨特谈身体痛苦甚于精神痛苦。

阅后感：看到卡洛琳的UCLA录取函时 想到了自己的大学录取回忆；结尾卡洛琳毅然离乡时 继续泪奔。

ep6 【亲子代关系】【亲代冲突】【死亡恐惧】【孤独】♦ 父母间的严重冲突状况、父母把马男作为无反抗能力的情绪垃圾桶，对马男的成年状况的根本性的显著影响。

原生家庭8.3（美）苏珊·福沃德博士 （美）克雷格·巴克 [美国] 苏珊·福沃德 / 2018 / 北京时代华文书局（令和首日 一日看完 力荐）

儿童精神分析8.3[英]梅兰妮•克莱茵 / 2016 / 世界图书出版公司

101个心理治疗难题8.6Jerome S. Blackman / 2016 / 中国轻工业出版社

精神分析诊断9.6]美] N. McWilliams / 2015 / 中国轻工业出版社

精神分析治愈之道9.6[美] 海因茨·科胡特 / 2016 / 重庆大学出版社

思想等待思想者8.5[澳] Joan Symington [澳] Neville Symington / 2015 / 中国轻工业出版社♦ 被亲代教育【不能依靠任何人】 。

♦ 为母亲致悼词：回忆母亲讲了大道理后归罪于儿子、一生不愿示亲密于儿子等状况，展现对父母两人的极度愤怒。

♦ 呈现了父母之死带来的【死亡恐惧】。

直视骄阳：征服死亡恐惧8.7欧文·亚隆 / 2015 / 中国轻工业出版社

死亡哲学7.8[美] 谢利·卡根 / 2016 / 北京联合出版公司♦ 结尾神升华：“ICU”谐音梗提示了每人都need “to be seen”，且暗示了马男母亲也没有从其亲代处得到“to be seen”的关爱。

♦ 剧末点睛：【to be seen： 对于被关注的期待】。

第三组ep7 【求助】【孤独】♦ 大量调侃咨询业 ♦ "it's just good to have someone to talk to"ep8 【焦虑】【亲密模式】【自我呈现】♦ 狗男的亲密关系模式 ♦ 凯瑟琳的年龄焦虑 ♦ Todd对承担责任的焦虑 ♦ 新炮友谈波杰克的自我呈现

日常生活中的自我呈现8.6（美）欧文·戈夫曼 / 2008 / 北京大学出版社ep9 【孤独】【亲密关系】♦ 通过全新领域的app（这个我反复设想过5年以上的手段），来【寻找同类】（以建立更高质量亲密关系）的todd第四组ep10 【人际冲突】♦ 欲海中，未化解旧仇的2个老段子手：

意愿的冲撞8.4[美] 罗杰·古尔德 / 2017 / 华东师范大学出版社ep11 职场【暴力】 ♦ #metoo运动 的发酵过程。

ep12 【自我保护与成长】【高压】♦ 【对自己好一点：像对待自己希望保护的人一样 宽容、体谅自己】@芒格与乔丹·皮特森的提醒

12 Rules for Life7.9Jordan B. Peterson / 2018 / Random House Canada♦ 高强度工作（以凯瑟琳PR工作为例）易导致亲子关系问题。

♦ 女演员为了事业/资本所付出的巨大的【心理/情绪代价】。

♦ 戒药物成瘾：突破过去的舒适区、对专业人士求助，求得成长。

♦ 狗男一会儿向前妻求复合，被拒绝后转头又向新女友求婚。

编剧想凸显其乐观个性？！

♦ 被朋友“朋友”背叛、在关系中重伤的戴安。

结尾，普锐斯中的戴安独自启程。

我们 又回到了各自的生活，还得继续过下去。

裸辞后， 18-09-16 听着伴我来沪的YUI《Tokyo》写下这个短记，for me。

181110的新发现（于喜马拉雅与微信均可搜到）：《马男波杰克》的存在主义哲学：个体挣扎、社会现实、文化观念 （by小声喧哗 林三土）190811 快看完《曾奇峰精神分析视频50讲》后的新发现：B站【假蚁出品】ScreenPrism | 光影棱镜 | 马男波杰克 v.s. 广告狂人 | 第一季 · 第一集191111 双十一发福利：马男s6影评【西方心理咨询视角 第二弹】Get a WHY to live for（每周更新）

（学英语用）音频Yes, yes, I see you. Get in. Get in.Your mother is having another one of her episodes. Last night, she went to seeA Doll’s Housewith a couple girlfriends, and now she has ideas. I emerged from my sanctum this afternoon to discover that not only had she not made me lunch, which is a meal I need in order to live, but she’d, furthermore, locked herself in the bedroom to weep. Loudly.Now it’s one thing for a woman to weep, but when they do it at such a volume you can hear it through the door, that’s when you know that they’re doing it just for the attention.Anyway, I was able to cobble together a sandwich for myself, so I’m the real hero of the story.[horn honking][tires screeching]It was a couple hours later when I realized I was on a good run with my novel. I had this really interesting sentence that kept going for pages and pages, and I thought about how rare it is to really get in the groove like that; how most days, I can’t concentrate because my idiot child is blasting the television and it suddenly dawned on me—hot cock on a rock, she never even picked up the little noise and snot factory![tires screech, horn honking]So, here I am, being your mother, which I know is giving you all sorts of mixed-up ideas about gender, while your brain is still loose and stupid. Just remember, if you become a queer later in life, this isn’t my fault! Don’t you sing no songs in your nightclub act called, “My Daddy was My Mommy,” while gazing longingly at a tangled string of pearls. Pearls are for ladies, BoJack. Pearls are for ladies.You know Sunday is my writing day. Sundays are the one day that are just for me and my craft, and still, you and the black hole that birthed you conspire to ruin it for me. What am I supposed to do now? Just go back to writing? I’m out of the zone now, the whole day’s shot! All because of you and that brittle wisp of a woman you made the mistake of making your mother.[sighs]No. It’s not her fault. She’s doing the best she can, after all. It’s just that… you can’t depend on women. You can’t depend on anyone. Sooner or later, you need to learn that no one else is gonna take care of you. That’s what I learned when I had to make my own sandwich. You can’t rely on other people, BoJack. It’s good for you to know that. And she’s a good mother for teaching you that. You’ve got a head start on most kids. You’re actually very lucky.[music continues over radio]Thaaaaank youuuuu?———So I stopped at a Jack in the Box on the way here, and the girl behind the counter said, “Hiya! Are you having an awesome day?” Not, “How are you doing today?” No. “Are you having anawesomeday?” Which is pretty… shitty, because it puts the onus on me to disagree with her, like if I’m not having an“awesome day,”suddenly I’m the negative one.Usually when people ask how I’m doing, the real answer is I’m doing shitty, but I can’t say I’m doing shitty because I don’t even have a good reason to be doing shitty. So if I say, “I’m doing shitty,” then they say, “Why? What’s wrong?” And I have to be like, “I don’t know, all of it?” So instead, when people ask how I’m doing, I usually say, “I am doingsogreat.”But when this girl at the Jack in the Box asked me if I was having an awesome day, I thought, “Well, today I’m actually allowed to feel shitty.” Today I have a good reason, so I said to her, “Well, my mom died,” and she immediately burst into tears. So nowIhave to comforther, which is annoying, and meanwhile, there’s a line of people forming behind me who are all giving me these real judgy looks because I made the Jack in the Box girl cry. And she’s bawling, and she’s saying, “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry,” and I’m like, “It’sfine. It’s fine.” I mean, it’s notfinebut, you know, it’s… fine. And I would like to order a Double Jack Meal, and I’ve kinda got somewhere to be, so maybe less with the crying and more with the frying, huh? [inhales] And the girl apologizes again and she offers me a free churro with my meal. And as I’m leaving, I think, “I just got a free churro because my mom died.” No one ever tells you that when your mom dies, you get a free churro.[people murmuring][clears throat]Anyway, I’m sorry, that’s not part of the… [clears throat] All right. Okay, here we go. Let’s do this. Here I am, BoJack Horseman, doing a eulogy, let’s go. Hey, piano man, can I get a, like an organ flourish? [organ plays] Nicely done. You know, I was a little worried I wouldn’t have the right accompaniment today. I guess it’s a good thing my mom was anorgandonor! [rimshot plays] What happened to the organ? [horn ‘oogahs’] Okay, why just leave the comedy to the professionals? Okay? This is a funeral, sir, for my mother. Can you show a little respect? [trumpet whines] I’ll take it.Beatrice Horseman, who was she? What was her deal? Well, she was a horse. Uh, she was born in 1938. She died in 2018. One time, she went to a parade, and one time, she smoked anentire cigarettein one long inhale. I watched her do it. Truly a remarkable woman.[rustling]Lived a full life, that lady. Just, all the way to the end, which is, uh, now I guess. Really makes you think, though, huh? Life, right? Goes by, stuff happens. Then you die. Okay, well that’s my time, you’ve been great! Tip your waitress! No, I’m just kidding around, there’s no waitress. But seriously, that’s all I have to say about my mother. No point beating a dead horse, right? So…[inhales] Now what? I don’t know. Mom, you got any ideas? Anything? Mom? No? Nothing to contribute? Knock once if you’re proud of me.Can I just say how amazing it is to be in a room with my mother, and I can just talk and talk without her telling me to shut up and make her a drink? Hey, Mom, knock once if you think I should shut up. No? You sure? I mean, I don’t want to embarrass you by making thiseulogy into a me-logy, so, seriously, if you wanted me to sit down and let someone else talk, just knock. I will not be offended. No? Your funeral.Sorry about the closed casket, by the way. She wanted an open casket, but uh, you know, she’s dead now, so who cares what she wanted? No, that sounds bad. I’m sorry. I-I think that if she could’ve seen what she looked like dead, she’d agree it’s better this way. She looked like this.[groaning][mourners gasping]Kinda like a pissed-off toy dinosaur. The coroner couldn’t get her eyes closed, so now her face is forever frozen in a mask of tremendous horror and anguish. Or as my mom called it, Tuesday! Tuesday! My mom called it Tuesday.[woman coughs]Hey, Mom, what did you think of that joke? You like that? You never did care for my comedy.[clears throat]Here’s a story. When I was a teenager, I performed a comedy routine for my high school talent show. There was this, uh, cool jacket that I wanted to wear because I thought it would make me look like Albert Brooks. For months, I saved up for this jacket. But when I finally had enough, I went to the store and it was gone. They had just sold it to someone else. So, I went home and I told my mother, and she said, “Let that be a lesson. That’s the good that comes from wanting things.” She was really good at dispensing life lessons that always seemed to circle back to everything being my fault.But then, on the day of the talent show, my mother had a surprise for me. She had bought me the jacket. Even though she didn’t know how to say it, I know this meant that she loved me.Now that’s a good story about my mother. It’s not true, but it’s a good story, right? I stole it from an episode ofMaudeI saw when I was a kid, where she talks about her father. I remember when I saw it, thinking, “That’s the kind of story I want to tell about my parents when they die.” But I don’t have any stories like that. All I know about being good, I learned from TV. And in TV, flawed characters are constantly showing people they care with these surprising grand gestures. And I think that part of me still believes that’s what love is. But in real life, the big gesture isn’t enough. You need to be consistent, you need to be dependably good. You can’t just screw everything up and then take a boat out into the ocean to save your best friend, or solve a mystery, and fly to Kansas. You need to do it every day, which isso… hard.When you’re a kid, you convince yourself that maybe the grand gesture could be enough, that even though your parents aren’t what you need them to be over and over andoveragain, at any moment, theymightsurprise you with something… wonderful. I kept waiting for that, the proof that even though my mother was a hard woman, deep down, she loved me and cared about me and wanted me to know that I made her life a little bit brighter. Even now, I find myself waiting.Hey, Mom, knock once if you love me and care about me and want me to know I made your life a little bit brighter.[owl chirping]My mother did not gogentleinto that good night. She went clawing and fighting and thrashing, hence the face.[groaning][mourners gasping]If you’d seen her, I swear to God the only thing you’d be thinking about right now is that I amnailingthis impression.[woman clears her throat][chairs squeak]I was in the hospital with her those last moments, and they were truly horrifying, full of nonsencial screams and cries, but there was this moment, this one instant of strange calm, where she looked in my direction and said, “I see you.” That’s the last thing she said to me. “I see you.” Not a statement of judgment or disappointment, just acceptance and the simple recognition of another person in a room. “Hello there. You are a person. And I see you.”Let me tell you, it’s a weird thing to feel at 54 years old, that for the first time in your life your mother sees you. It’s an odd realization that that’s the thing you’ve been missing, the only thing you wanted all along, to be seen. And it doesn’t feel like a relief, to finally be seen. It feelsmean, like, “Oh, it turns out that you knew what I wanted, and you waited until the very last moment to give it to me.” I was prepared for more cruelty. I was sure that she would get in one final zinger about how I let her down, and about how I was fat and stupid and too tall to be an effective Lindy-hopper. How I was needy and a burden and an embarrassment—all that I was ready for. I was not ready for“I see you.”Only my mother would be lousy enough to swipe me with a moment of connection on her way out.Butmaybe I’m giving her too much credit. Maybe it wasn’t about connection. Maybe it was a… maybe it was an “I see you,” like, uh, “I see you.” Like, “You might have the rest of the world fooled, but I know exactly who you are.”That’smore my mom’s speed.Or maybe she just literally meant “I see you. You are an object that has entered my field of vision.” She was pretty out of it at the end, so maybe it’s dumb to try to attribute it to anything.[woman sighs]Back in the 90s, I was in a very famous TV show calledHorsin’ Around.[man coughs]Please hold your applause. And I remember one time, a fan asked me, “Hey, um, you know that episode where the horse has to give Ethan a pep talk after Ethan finds out his crush only asked him to the dance because her friends were having a dorkiest date contest? In all the shots of the horse, you can see a paper coffee cup on the kitchen counter, but in the shots of Ethan, the coffee cup’s missing. Was that because the show was making a statement about the fluctuant subjectivity of memory and how even two people can experience the same moment in entirely different ways?” And I didn’t have the heart to be, like, “No, man, some crew guy just left their coffee cup in the shot.” So instead, I was, like… “Yeah.”And maybe this is like that coffee cup. Maybe we’re dumb to try to pin significance onto every little thing. Maybe when someone says, “I see you,” it just means, “I see you.” Then again, it’s possible she wasn’t even talking to me because, if I’m being honest, she wasn’t really looking at me. She was looking just past me. There was nobody else in the room, so I want to think she was talking to me, but, honestly, she was so far gone at that point, who knows what she was seeing? Who were you talking to, Mom? [sighs] Not saying, huh? Staying mum? No rimshot there? God, whatever I’m paying you, it’s too much.Maybe she saw my dad. My dad died about ten years ago of injuries he sustained during a duel. When your father dies, you ask yourself a lot of questions. Questions like, “Wait, did you say he died in aduel?” and “Who dies in aduel?” The whole thing was so stupid. Dad spent his entire life writing this book, but he couldn’t get any stores to carry it or any newspapers to review it. Finally, I guess this one newspaper thought he was pretty hilarious, because they ran a review and tore him to shreds. So my father, ever the proud Mary, decided he would not stand for this besmirchment of his honor. He claimed the critic didn’t understand what it meant to be a man, so he demanded satisfaction in the form of pistols at dawn. He wrote the paper this letter, saying anyone who didn’t like his book, he would challenge to a duel, anyone in the world. He’d even pay for airfare to San Francisco and a night in a hotel. Well, eventually this found its way to some kook in Montana, who was as batshit as he was and took him up on the offer. They met at Golden Gate Park and agreed: ten paces, then shoot. But in the middle of the ten paces, Dad turned to ask the guy if he’d actually read the book and what he thought, but, not looking where he was going, tripped over an exposed root and bashed his head on a rock.[murmur]I wish I’d known to go to Jack in the Box then. Maybe I could have gotten a free churro. It would’ve been nice to have something to show for being the son of Butterscotch Horseman. My darling mother gave the eulogy. My entire life I never heard her say a kind word toorabout my father, but at his funeral she said, “My husband is dead, and everything is worse now.”“My husband is dead, and everything is worse now.” I don’t know why she said that. Maybe she felt like that’s the kind of thing you’re supposed to say at a funeral. Maybe she hoped one day someone would say that about her. “My mother is dead, and everything is worse now.” Or maybe she knew that he had frittered away all her inheritance, and replaced it with crippling debt, which is a pretty shitty thing to leave your widow with. “Bad news, you lost a husband, but don’t worry, you also lost the house!” Maybe Mom knew she’d have to sell all her fancy jewelry and move into a home. Maybe that’s what she meant by “everything is worse now.” Is that what you meant, Mom?I gotta say, I’m really carrying this double act. At least with Penn and Teller, the quiet one does card tricks. Hey, piano man, when I say something funny to my mom, how about you give me one of those rimshots?[rimshot plays]Yeah, but not now. When I say something funny. Like, okay. What’s the difference between my mother and a disruptive expulsion of germs? One’s a coughin’ fit and the other fits a coffin! That’s an example of a funny thing.[rimshot plays]Thank you. Let’s try again. Hey, Mom. What’s the difference between my mother and a bunch of Easter eggs? One gets carried in a basket, the other gets buried in a casket![rimshot plays]Ready for one more? Last one. What’s the difference between a first-year lit major and my mother, Beatrice Horseman? One is decently read, and the other’s a huge bitch![woman gasps][murmurs]Yeah, might have gone a little too far with that one. That one might’ve been a little too “my mom’s a huge bitch” for the room. I’m sorry, Mother. You’re not a huge bitch. Youwerea huge bitch… and now you’re dead.[woman sighs]You know, the first time I ever performed in front of an audience, it actually was, uh, with my mom. She used to put on these shows with her supper club in the living room and she used to make… [inhales] She used to make me sing “The Lollipop Song.”[organ playing tune]Those parties, they were really something. There were skits and magic acts, and ethnically insensitive vaudeville routines, and thebigfinale was always a dance my mother did. She had this beautiful dress that she only brought out for these parties, and she did this incredible number. It was so beautiful and sad. Dad hated the parties. He’d lock himself in the study, and bang on the walls for us to keep it down, but he always came out to see Mom dance. He’d linger in the doorway, scotch in hand, and watch in awe, as this cynical, despicable woman he married… took flight. And as a child who was completely terrified of both my parents, I was always aware that this moment of grace, it meant something. We understood each other in a way. Me and my mom and my dad, as screwed up as we all were, we did understand each other. My mother, she knew what it’s like to feel your entire life like you’re drowning, with the exception of these moments, these very rare, brief instances, in which you suddenly remember… you can swim.[flashback][partygoers laughing][classical music playing]But then again, mostly not. Mostly you’re drowning. She understood that, too. And she recognized that I understood it. And Dad. All three of us were drowning, and we didn’t know how to save each other, but there was an understanding that we were all drowning together. And I would like to think that that’s what she meant when we were in the hospital and she said, “I see you.”You know, the weird thing about both your parents being dead is it means that you’re next. I mean, you know, obviously it’s not like there’s a waitlist for dying. Any one of us could get run over by a Snapchatting teen at any moment. And you would think that knowing that would make us more adventurous, and kind, and forgiving. But it makes us small, and stupid, and petty.I actually had a near-death experience recently. A stunt went bad and I fell off a building. I’m an actor, I do my own stunts. I’m on this new show Philbert. I’m Philbert. Star of the show. It hasn’t come out yet, but it’s already getting Emmy buzz. Oh, speaking of buzz… [inhales] I’m supposed to take two of these every morning, but my days are so screwed up ‘cause of the shooting schedule, I don’t even know what morning means anymore. There’s a joke in there somewhere, about a guy who’s been to so many funerals, he doesn’t even know what mourning means anymore. Let you guys figure that one out for yourselves. [gulps]Anyway, you know what I thought, when I was falling off the building and I went into panic mode? The last thing that my stupid brain could come up with before I died? “Won’t they be sorry.” Cool thought, brain.[rimshot plays]No, that wasn’t… would you just… dial it back, all right?I don’t even know what“they”I wanted to be sorry. My mom, even before she died, could barely remember who I was. And of course, my dad’s dead. The last conversation I ever had with him was about his novel. He was so certain this book was his legacy. Maybe he thought it would vindicate him for all the shitty things he ever did in his stupid worthless life. Maybe it did, I don’t know. I never read it, because why would I give him that?I used to be on this TV show calledHorsin’ Around. Seriously, though, hold your applause.[man coughs]Well held. It was written by my friend Herb Kazzaz, who’s also dead now, and it starred this little girl named Sarah Lynn. And it was about these orphans. And early on, the network had a note, “Maybe don’t mention they’re orphans so much, because audiences tend to find orphans sad and not relatable.” But I never thought that the orphans were sad. I-I always thought they were lucky, because they could imagine their parents to be anything they wanted. They had something to long for.Anyway, we did this one season finale, where Olivia’s birth mother comes to town. And she was a junkie, but she’s gotten herself cleaned up, and she wants to be in Olivia’s life again. And of course, she’s like a perfect grown-up version of Olivia, and they go to the mall together and get her ears pierced like she’s always wanted and—sorry, spoiler alert for the season six finale ofHorsin’ Around, if you’re still working your way through it. Anyway, the horse tries to warn her, “Be careful, moms have a way of letting you down.” But Olivia just thinks the horse is jealous, and when the mom says she’s moving to California, Olivia decides to go with her. And the network really juiced the cliffhanger: “Is Olivia gone for good?” But of course, because it’s a TV show, she was not gone for good. Of course, because it’s a TV show, Olivia’s mother had a relapse and had to go back to rehab, so Olivia had to hitchhike all the way home, getting rides from Mr. T, Alf, and the cast ofStomp. Of course, that’s what happened. Because, what are you gonna do, just not have Olivia on the show? You can’t have happy endings in sitcoms, not really, because, if everyone’s happy, the show would be over, and above all else, the show… has to keep going. There’s always more show. And you can callHorsin’ Arounddumb, or bad, or unrealistic, but there is nothing more realistic than that. You never get a happy ending, ‘cause there’s always more show.I guess until there isn’t.[chuckles]My mom would hate it if she knew that I spent so much time at her funeral talking about my old TV show. Or maybe she’d think it was funny that her idiot son couldn’t even do this right. Who knows? She left no instructions for what she wanted me to say. All I know is she wanted an open casket, and her idiot son couldn’t even do that right. I’m not gonna stand up here and pretend I ever understood how to please that woman, even though so much of my life has been wasted in vain attempts to figure it out. But I keep going back to that moment in the ICU when she looked at me, and… “I-C-U.”“I… see… you.” Jesus Christ, we were in the intensive care unit. She was just reading a sign. My mom died and all I got was this free churro.You know the shittiest thing about all of this? Is when that stranger behind the counter gave me that free churro, that small act of kindness showed more compassion than my mother gave me her entire goddamn life. Like, how hard is it to do something nice for a person? This woman at the Jack in the Box didn’t even know me. I’m your son! All I had was you! [inhales]I have this friend. And right around when I first met her, her dad died, and I actually went with her to the funeral. And months later, she told me that she didn’t understand why she was still upset, because she never even liked her father. It made sense to me, because I went through the same thing when my dad died. And I’m going through the same thing now. You know what it’s like? It’s like that showBecker, you know, with Ted Danson? I watched the entire run of that show, hoping that it would get better, and it never did. It had all the right pieces, but it just—it couldn’t put them together. And when it got canceled, I was really bummed out, not because I liked the show, but because I knew it could be so much better, and now it never would be. And that’s what losing a parent is like. It’s likeBecker.Suddenly, you realize you’ll never have the good relationship you wanted, and as long as they were alive, even though you’d never admit it, part of you, the stupidest goddamn part of you, was still holding on to that chance. And you didn’t even realize it until that chance went away.My mother is dead, and everything is worse now, because now I know I will never have a mother who looks at me from across a room and says, “BoJack Horseman, I see you.” But I guess it’s good to know. It’s good to know that there is nobody looking out for me, that there never was, and there never will be. No, it’s good to know that I am the only one that I can depend on. And I know that now and it’s good. It’s good that I know that. So… it’s good my mother is dead.[gulps, sighs]Well. No point beating a dead horse. Beatrice Horseman was born in 1938, and she died in 2018, and I have no idea… what she wanted. Unless she just wanted what we all want… to be seen.Is this Funeral Parlor B?

重刷马男，第五季给我感触可以称得上最大？

等再看一遍第六季也许又会变了，但至少目前是这样。

分人物讲讲吧。

戴安和花生酱先生离婚那一段可以说是我记得非常清楚的了，去越南，看见花生酱和酸黄瓜接吻，戴安在车上的大哭，不同地区变换而同样的孤独，“我不知道为什么我让一切变得那么糟糕。

”她和花生酱先生之间并不是不爱所以离婚，而是不合适，我想这更痛苦吧。

她待在越南的酒店换上旗袍戴上草帽的那个场面我记得很清楚。

第五季的戴安可以说是“脆弱”“边缘”，真的很需要心理医生纾解，问题太多了。

花生酱先生其实是我最喜欢的角色，和卡洛琳公主一样。

这季讲了花生酱先生的四段婚姻，戴安说“你一直在和二十多岁的女孩子恋爱”。

每一段婚姻都是最青春的十年，然后女孩长大了，但花生酱先生仍旧还是二十多岁的样子。

永远活力，被人喜爱，所有人的好朋友。

第二季还是第三季里花生酱和戴安说，你不在家的时候我大部分时间都在发呆，转来转去然后等你回来。

你是我的全世界那种感觉真的很让人动容，他爱人就是全心全意然后付出自己一切，绕着你疯狂转然后给你惊喜的那种感觉，每一任一开始应该都很喜欢，花生酱先生一直以来也就是想要大家都喜欢他，爱他。

但后来，生活哪来那么多阳春白雪，真是一地鸡毛，不善于倾听应该是他最大的缺陷了。

戴安和花生酱做了之后，花生酱也是说要和戴安复合，酸黄瓜是个好女孩。

这个被戴安驳回了，他们的确不适合在一起，但我还是觉得花生酱在四个婚姻里最爱的是戴安，就像是他之前说的，我还爱着戴安，从没忘记过。

很可惜，真的很可惜。

然后是卡洛琳公主，和男友分手（猫和老鼠恋爱阻碍太多，也错过了），事业受挫，选择领养之后一直奔走，犹大离开之后她也变得更忙更忙了，这季讲了卡洛琳公主的过去，流产五次，第一次是和那个狐狸（这段真的很有感触），猫妈送的项链是不值钱的货，但是给她很大勇气，上飞机之前猫妈说的再等一年被卡洛琳拒绝那里，拉尔夫想复合被拒绝那里，真想为她欢呼，她值得最好的，不要停滞于此啊！

陶德本季做了主管，和无性恋女友短暂在一起又分手，两个人除了都是无性恋之外没有任何共同之处，约定一百岁你未婚我未嫁就再试试看，真是他的作风。

不过话说回来陶德真的能力太强，工作都很厉害，满脑子点子而且单纯且专一，简历也无敌。

他是一个奉献式的角色，也是全剧的金手指和“单纯”担当吧，其实蛮希望他能和艾米丽在一起的，做了sex机器人结果变成自己boss，很讽刺的处理，最后陶德在自己的秘密基地毁掉机器人，“i love you ，father”，很犯规。

然后陶德把西装撕掉，里面是自己的红卫衣运动裤，在夕阳中离去。

很感动很感动。

吉娜，不知为何我觉得她其实应该是做了一个“救赎”的角色，至少这一季是他的稻草之一。

马男在杀青后还了解她的一切，为了偷药跑去人家家里告白？

为她争取唱歌的机会，希望自己能帮助吉娜。

送礼物，精神混乱之后在聚光灯下两个人接吻，同居，吉娜在受伤后每天去看他。

马男说“她在我身边这让我感觉很好”“我要保护吉娜”的时候能感觉真挺在乎的，但是伤害她的也是他，很糟糕。

最后是马男，马男在这一季里要讲的真的太多太多了。

前几季的事情叠加起来在这季开始逐渐达到峰值而且逐渐转化。

第六集波杰克的独白可以说是全季神集，很有局外人开头的感觉，我妈妈死了所以我得到了免费油条，不断提起的i see you和最后才发觉的icu，我妈妈死了所以一切变得更糟了，因为你知道有些事情本来可以变好但是已经没机会了，最后开棺发现走错了葬礼厅，和第三季我最喜欢的那集海底世界有异曲同工之妙，糊掉的道歉纸条，走错的葬礼，马男的一生其实都好像在不停的犯错，后悔，和错过。

父母的死亡彻底结束了他一直想要得到的亲情和认可，某种意义上不是解脱，反而让他更脆弱。

想得到赞同，得到支持和喜欢，想被看见，所以稀里糊涂做女权主义者，想改变自己而尝试戒酒戒毒，然后还是在暴走，瘾之间做错更多的事情。

上一季多出来的妹妹让他稍微好了一点，吉娜的陪伴让他又好了一点，但做错的事太多太多了。

菲尔伯特的拍摄，现实和剧情不断交叠的几集做得非常非常好，波杰克说：“被波杰克做错事伤害最深的人就是我自己”，他一直在堕落中挣扎又堕落，想改变但一切都为时已晚。

恐慌一切都会被发现，恐慌身边人的离开，他想要原谅自己，但这其实也是错的，因为不敢直视错误，就像是戴安说的，菲尔伯特不是让你感觉自己不错，而是让你认清自己的错误，就像是枪支电影那里制片人说的，为什么现实里总有这么多枪支案阻止我们美化枪击。

影视人物的错不是为了让你感觉自我良好，每个人都会犯错的。

多个人物堆积推动导致波杰克特效出事，然后住院以另一种方式药物上瘾，然后逐渐严重，甚至让我感觉比前几季更严重，他答应霍莉霍克会照顾好自己，但犯瘾后主动开车撞出事然后继续住院，嗑药达到巅峰，精神脆弱没有治疗加上入戏，分不清片场和现实，最后导致伤害吉娜，这个他想要保护的女孩。

正如所言，再次搞砸了，这次是完完全全的。

因为是二刷所以对很多地方感触不同了，马男每一季或多或少都有改过之心，但总有东西推动搞砸，想放逐自己去墨西哥然后差点和初恋的女儿酿成大祸，想和帮自己奥斯卡的经理人在一起然后over，想和萨拉琳重新来过然后间接导致萨拉琳死亡，想自杀然后看见奔跑的马群，想拍好骄马结果全部变成特效，想保护吉娜然后变成伤害她的人。

记得很清楚第三季安娜说的救生员故事，有人不可以救，因为他会拉着你共沉沦。

马男似乎就是这样一个角色，或者说剧里像是戴安，甚至花生酱都在说这个事，为什么我总是把事情搞砸？

而这一季尾马男想要找戴安把所有事坦白，但被拒绝，然后被戴安送到戒毒所。

即使说出来也没有任何意义，你需要改变自己。

故事以马男和戴安在戒毒所门前的见面告终。

或许第一次看我会想“会变好吗？

”但我是重刷，所以我知道，只会更糟糕。

生活就是一系列简单悲剧的复杂重合，堕落太简单，但要赎罪无比艰难。

应该说每个人的悲剧都不是独一的，而是无数悲剧叠加产生的。

马男波杰克中一个重点也是“原生家庭”，马男，戴安，萨拉琳，卡洛琳公主等的原生家庭都给他们造成了很大影响，而往上父母的悲剧也来自祖辈，都绝不是说“我要改变”就可以重新来过的，但还是要继续，要和“错误”切断关系，继续走下去。

其实不太清楚马男给我的影响是好还是坏比较多，第一次看完时丧了很长一段时间，二刷也是一直在思考，但还是那句话吧，在虚拟世界寻找真实的人脑子一定有问题，如果我一直执着要在这里扣出点加油的鸡汤，那还不如去看很多励志片。

此外，本季提到的女权，上一季的政治，污点人物复出，以及大量的不同人物生活和故事描写，都给我很深的思考，马男之后要何去何从呢？

答案其实再清楚不过了。

还是要说菲尔伯特那段做得太巧妙，他可能也很想把自己和做错事的自己剔除开，就像是臆想出的搭档，但最后，毁掉自己的还是自己。

很喜欢这一季的海报，那个庞大的飞在空中的马男气球，和仰头看着气球的波杰克。

气球就像是以往的所有错事，紧紧的跟随着他，脆弱，巨大且一触即发。

昨天看完了第五季，没敢再继续往下看这部剧中曾经总出现在社交媒体截图中的金句并没有给我留下太多印象，倒是一些黑白颠倒不知所云的包袱让我哈哈大笑。

开始我最喜欢Mr. Peanutbutter，出生在拉布拉多岛，无论给恋人还是朋友都能带来满满的爱，每次Diane神经质的时候都鼓励她包容她，每次Todd乱七八糟的点子被群嘲之后他都是唯一一个不吝赞美并且一起合伙的人。

这样的Mr.Peanubutter也让我觉得戴安是个很幸运的人，尽管在恋爱关系中她总是表现出逃避，刻薄，没有安全感，总是拒人于千里之外。

PC是我看到后面才喜欢上的。

剧里她几乎没有哭过，无论是面对所有人推过来的烂摊子还是自己被男人被家人伤害，PC都是只深深地叹一声气，然后就大包大揽像女超人一样Handle所有的事情，被Bojack赶走车上放着“just driving girl dont turn around”她还是一个油门杀回餐厅去救场。

深夜一个人站在窗前谢谢手机说的生日快乐，只有这时候她才显得有点寂寞，她每次深深地叹气都让我心疼。

第五季花了更多的时间讲过去的故事，花生酱如何和每一任妻子在一起然后离婚，PC是如何从帮做女佣的妈妈干活开始不知不觉变成了一个无法克制地帮所有人擦屁股的角色，BJ的父母如何陷入错误婚姻的泥沼BJ如何在这羞辱和争吵中长大成人。

离婚之后花生酱又飞快热烈地爱上了小自己二十岁的Pickle，戴安一个人去了越南仍没有像期望的那样“逃离生活并与自己和解”；而Bojack当了那么久的混蛋，这次那么小心翼翼想要珍惜的人，他还是搞砸了一如既往地伤害了别人，不仅仅是因为毒瘾。

刚开始看第一季我第一次听到那句“You are born broken”只觉得做作，大家不过都是普普通通平平凡凡有闪光点也有黑暗面的人（或者动物）而已，有三两朋友，甚至剧里很多人都事业有成，所谓的broken不过是一时堕落的借口庸人自扰。

看到最后一集戴安陪Bojack去戒毒所之后一边抽烟一边开车离开，我才明白最令人难过的是，每个人可能都走不出自己的那个怪圈，可能是因为性格，可能是命运的安排，不自知，或者自知却无能为力。

前几季人物立住了 这一季终于开始放肆探索讲剧情了 之前总有一种为了丧而丧的嫌疑 看完感觉像一拳打在心上 软绵绵的但是胸闷 一段时间就没什么感觉了 这季打完这拳还会在心里拧几下 而且台词也不再是大段的毒鸡汤说教了 正常真实了很多以前看完只有一种情感就是同情马男——他也没办法吧这样想 这季是真的为之生气 尤其是他们跟记者解释掐人事件时马男为了自己心里舒坦非要说出真相 马男活得痛苦就理所当然地脆弱发疯不承担责任 可是还有比他活得更艰难的人 他们在不得不坚强活着承受自己的痛苦的同时还要无端端地再加上 因为马男的任性所带来的 本不用承担的痛苦 而且他们甚至没有资本去使用酒精毒品来逃避 即便如此 正因为他们遭受了更多的苦难所以他们又都知道马男也不是故意的 就像我前几季感受到的 他们知道对于马男这个人来说 他做出这样的事也是没办法的结果 马男没办法不这样 于是他们包括我虽然又气又恨 可还是怪罪不了他 不过我产生这样的感受也可能是等第五季期间看事物的角度变化了 之前也有只是我没感受到最让人震惊的是花生酱和黛安居然已经结婚十年了 原来马男的世界里时间活得这么快 轰隆隆 人生几十年就这么过去了 看那些人物谈到的记得的对于他们人生有着影响的事也就那么几件 连起来不过是几季电视剧 时间一直在给我们机会 重新站起来的机会 只是我们从来没成功过罢了 I have never been at the top of the world ever since.最后黛安送马男去戒毒所 这是第一次季终是带有希望的结局吧 马男加油哇 黛安加油哇另外看到有人说这季前面不错后面一般 其实我倒觉得每一集都各有特点 越看到后面越觉得叙事方式多变新奇到这个程度 太牛逼了吧！

而且片头片尾都好用心 配乐太好听了 希望能出原声带！

我不是个苛责的人，但是这一季有些许失望。

人物间联系的紧密性和关联性都降低了，而且还是在探讨一些前几季的老梗，缺乏那种感动和纠结。

波杰克，我们已经陪伴他很久，我觉得他应该学会担当和改变，没人会对一个死不悔改的渣男有太多的耐心。

相比于过去总能截图作为金句保存的前几季，这一季有点小失望。

纠结了许久，给3星，期待提高。